我的姐妹们！

nypco mate
20岁老人又来了。

姐妹们：谢谢,for the birthday chalet .i enjoy myself .

My birthday is spent walking around vivo and finally having steamboat . with my co mate .
i think this is the first time i eat so long although i only sit around and watch them eat . i am so full .And did stupid thing at the bus stop.
一粒鱼丸多少钱！！！！
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Hope all my wish from friend and from myself can come true .

老了！
feeling emo cause today will be my last day of age 19th .

My age of 19th is spent at a very stress period of my life . And i think i will get depression at the age of 20 bah .

i feeling stress now with alot of thing not done in my hand . i just so tired and stress over small thing and thing that have nothing to do with me . But i cannot dun think . how ! What getting into me . i feeling so unhappy on my last day of age 19th . i wish i can alway be at age 15th .I wish i can go back to that day , Wish to go Kbox on my birthday but i think alot of thing have not been done and need to be done . OMG .
My mother is nagging on me of not getting enough sleep , i think i really old liao . used to sleep at 4 am , but now ask me sleep later then 2am , i like going to die the next day . Today even mike also stress me lor .HoW!!! i feeling super low Now !!!

SCREAM !!! i wish i am never born !!!
我是老人！but i got alot thing still not sort le . Hope i will be myself at the age of 20 .
啊啊啊！

i am feeling very stress now ！ How !!! help me anyone !


Me and guMei !

Can you name 13 of ur friends
that you
can think of right off the top of your
head? Don't read the questions
underneath until you write the names of
all 13 people. This is a lot funnier if
you actually randomly list the names
first. No cheating!


1. agnes
2. jj
3. brenda
4. mabel
5. cf
6. siyi
7. liping
8. elling
9. xinger
10. daniel
11. raymond
12. eunice
13. sherryl

How did you meet 10?
- nypco

What would you do if you had never met
1?
- no one to update me

What would you do if 6 and 2 dated?
they cannot be lesbian

Do you think 10 is cute?
hohoho !!!!

How did you get to know 8?
from priamy sch !


Would you ever go on a date with
number 12?
- no!

What's 7's Favorite colour?
-orange mah

What would you do if 3 confessed he/she
loves you?
stun

Fact about 9.
she is a libra !!

Who is 4 going out with?
ah ber

Who is number 5 to you?
- my favourite girl.

Would you ever live with 13?
-haha , living with her not bad cause can make me more clever

Is 6 single?
-no

What do you think about 3?
i miss her !!A girl with bring future !

What's the best thing about number 8?
- a ger i know for the longest !

What do you like about number 11?
- a person tat i am about to talk to !

Favorite Memory with 3?
- studying with her for exam and eat maggie
hahas. funny~

What is no 1's talent?
- alway the planner for group outing !

累。
一天一天的过，
头脑还是那样，
想想想，烦烦烦。
真是气自己。
今天的心情，有上有下。
也跑了今年最多的一次。
也去了orchard .开心的。


美丽的回忆！
Photo wait for Amelia Jie to send me .. hehe
晚安！

Emoing again .

Just woke up from a long sleep just now .Nothing much to do as i am too lazy to do .
Now my brain is having it own discussion of thing .

Today at lab do practical . In two week time i will be about to see how much bacteria live at my finger . And today we went into a "cold room " say is 4 degree .Science can be fun but when u come to Quiz or report , it can kill people ..

星期天晚上，发呆。
2.45am 的时候,听到一声bang!
也不当一回事。
今天，妈妈说是有人跳楼。
Scare me !

But just want to say , got people who common suicide so near me .
It somehow let me ask myself is this the last answer for everything , but not to worry everyone this is just an thinking . But i hope the lady do regret of what she have done .

Feeling so tired and sleepy now after a long day , Performance in the afternoon then practice at the night . Never go take the Quiz , i bet tomorrow teacher would want us to take the quiz , so at least i need to prepare now . 加油俐仪。


PLs : Thx for the encouragement from my darling sister and friend , i will 正作的。

如果可以回到以前，我会是现在的我吗？
我的世界会是什麽样子？
会是一样的黑吗，还是是五颜六色？

为什麽，当我一个人的时候，心情会便的不太好。
不懂心里为什麽如此的不安。
我真的不懂。

有人说每天都在变，
我的世界变了吗？
为什麽我一点都不想动。
如果动了我会好过一些吗？
谁可以给我答案？

我以不是乐观的我！
是什麽，
让我变得沉默？
让我不懂如何面对你们？

我不懂什麽时候我以开始放弃我自己了！


To 姐妹们：
Do not think bad of not about to cheer me up , the problem never lie with you all .
I thank you all for wanting to me make my this year birthday a chance to cheer me up , i am happy u all do that for me . i will go as u all come first in my everything , but i dunno when that day come , Can i laugh like i used to , joke like i used to . i cannot promise u all anything , Cause i seen to forget how i do it , and i cannot seen to found it back yet .

You Are Really Not Happy

You may have noticed that things aren't going too well for you lately.Your life never used to be like this, but it seems like happiness is slipping away from you.You definitely need a change, because whatever you have going on isn't working.It's time for you to shake things up - even if it means totally changing your life path.

How Happy Are You, Really?

i am now in the library again playing the rabbit game and again i break my record ..
i jump until one bell is 3k ..
prove

Was walking to NYP just now with my mind in the world of music .
I really love the moment where i walk to school think of nothing but listen to the music i love alot . Music really can heal people mind and soul .

But still i have to go back to the world i am now .

Sometime i wish i can just disappear like i am not here at all .Like i never left any mark in the world i am in now . But i know this cannot come true as i am still here no matter how many time i have wish with all my wills .

Do i like my life now ?? A question i ask myself alot of time but i cannot give myself a answer i agree . I cannot say i hate it . i also cannot say i love it .A Question without a Answer ..

Let me sink in somemore .

Trying my very best not to see doctor .. Want to get well without seeing a doctor .
but i fail as my fever shot up to 38.8 . Haix .

i am feeling super weak now with all this in my stomach ..
So long never have this kind of "weak" feeling .
So sleepy .
Sick make my mood worst !!!!

i am really sick and my voice .. OMG .

Just meet Agnes they all to sing k. but i come back early because i am really sick !!!!

Heavy snow with virus .. Although i just meet them but all i do is sit there saying lesser and lesser thing to them .'Update about my life' I myself do not know what i have done this few month and week .. Maybe becoming sick is a way to let me relax both my soul and body . Let me have time to lay on the bed to sort out thing . Trying to find back Me . but it seen to be more far then i can imagine .

Seen like my blog is also giving me problem .. haiz .
But who care , there are more thing to think of then this .

Just to come here and give myself time to slack , seen like all the tutorial can never be finish .
WHY ...
It is because this the last studying sem . haiz ..
So many thing to be done but not done at all ..


i will jia you de .. Give me abit more time .

Haix ....

i just the same this few week ,burst out a few day ago . i mean again .. what happening to me .

Thing happening around me make me hate the life i having now . i so tired of my life now .. i know this is not good to say this but this is how i think . And i am very VERY angry with myself for not about to figure out the thing in my brain and the thing is getting more and more hard to sort out ..

About to contact a friend i have lost contact for 2 year . A friend that i really miss and i mean really miss the old time we have . However although she is sooo faraway from me i can say she still have a tiny small part in my heart . And i heard she is going to settle in singapore . it bright up my mood to hear that . Sometime i think i become more emo this few week is because i only look at the big bad thing that is happening around me and forget the small little thing that may bright up my life . i think alot of people also realize that they are also like that . i should not ask people around me to cheer up seen i cannot do it at this very moment but i hope i can do it before it is too late .

Sorry for spoiling your day . Weilin and Meng Shan .
I am feeling much better now .
Plus ..Raymond DUN U dare say a single word on the thing again ...


This week homework .
Tutorial to be done .
Report to be done .
This week got Project Presentation .
But nothing was done at all .
Hope everything goes will ...

Let Pray .


Mother Day is Coming . What to do for Mummy .???
Maybe do a Card .

outsider ..
looking thing from the outside .

Am i a loner .
Sometime i think i am .

Thing change too fast ,without me knowing .
I wish my world never change .. just stop at the age of 4 .
Maybe it time for me to go back to my protection .


Friendship is how heavy ? Can anyone tell me !

half of my cheerful liyi is back ..
but still half of my emo liyi is still there ...
how .... i dun want emo again ..


fighting still .....

tomorrow will be a better day for me ...
however it is a long day . 10- 5 pm and 1 hr break ...

alot of thing to do .. but all i did is slacking .
only done my commo skill work ..
case study can go down the drain liao ...

night everyone

me and kaixin .
Get to meet them after my two hour lab which i really stress that i fail the module .
Cannot understand some more got case study . i really need to sit down and do .. hand in on Friday . and commo skill homework not done also .. omg .

Meet up with them help me relax alot although they tease me but i feel good being tease by them maybe because it bring me back to the old secondary school time . Miss the feeling alot alot .. Went to downtown as they want to book chalet . haiz they cannot book on my birthday cause it is a weekday . so sad ! but i happy i about to go for a chalet to relax myself .

Tomorrow is holiday , but i think i stuck at home to finish my work so i got more time to think of other thing . Maybe staying at home also not a bad thing .And i get to sing free K on my TV . Why not .

tutorial homework not done .
comm skill cut and paste newspaper not done due on Friday .
Case study not done + do not know how to do due on Friday .
柳琴need to be practice . (forget to bring score home . OMG learn basic lor .)
Book not read and is going to due also .
Anime not watch .

Alot of thing is to be done but laziness spoil everything .

Thank Kaixin and Jieling for this ..

i will think of u two when i see this.
sorry if i not in the mood today .

photo in co rm